Time to complain, but seriously I just want to write this somewhere.

So it’s monsoon season where I live and the air pollution and stuff is already really terrible here because of the geography, and with the monsoons the winds pick up and  there’s nothing but dirt and sand out here so when that happens that’s in the air too.

Lucky me I have athsma and EIB so this really is just horrible right now. And normally I’m on a controller for it but my doctor told me I don’t need it in the summer. That’s what’s really pissing me off, because he said it was supposed to get better over time, and it should never have progressed even as far as it has now. Now it seems like it gets worse every year instead of getting better. So I’m going to start the controller again tomorrow, because the jumpiness and shakes from my inhaler are just really uncomfortable.

And I have other health problems, they normally don’t really bother me much, but that’s party of the reason I spend all my time on the computer though, is to ignore them. I used to take ibuprofen more when I was still growing, because my back pain was bad then, but in the last year I haven’t had to take pain pills all but once a month for those lady cramps. And I guess taking ibuprofen since grade school has taken it’s toll…

I take it with milk now and food, (since I didn’t always do that, like in class and when I was in a situation where there just wasn’t anything.) like now I did earlier, but while getting a rid of other pain that’s not really fun instead I’m getting sharp stomach pains after the ibuprofen wears off… I should really start taking a different pain killer but I never really liked any of the others I’ve used.

I really need to shut up and just get used to being in pain because there are so many more people out there with much worse problems than I. Plus, I just keep getting different things that no one can fix or make better, and it’s not like they’re just going to go away. Complaining isn’t going to fix them either.

Sometimes it’s just so frustrating though, you look at all the girls your age who can play sports and wear perfume without having to worry about not being able to breath, or can exercise and even fall asleep in their boyfriends arms and not care because their back isn’t going to stiffen up and be sore.

I try hard not to complain. And I normally don’t. I sit on my computer, and I leave my own business to myself.

Thanks to those who read the whole thing. And sorry also.